As most of you know, I am doing a volleyball camp at Trabuco. So, when I decided to do this camp, I had a couple reasons, but none were very substantial.
My reasons:
1) I'm tall.
2) I played at school before.
3) I don't want to do P.E.
4) WHY NOT?

Substantial? I think not.
But, I gave it a try anyways because I was going to have nothing better to do. I didn't think much of it, I just thought it was going to pass the time and get me in shape. Now, I'm in my 4th out of 5 weeks of this camp, and it has turned out to be SO much more.

I love this game. I love it with my whole heart. I usually hate organized sports and anything having to do with them, but seriously...I am passionate. Everything about it, I love. Even the agilities and the sprawls and the shuffling...I complain, but secretly, I love it all. When I'm there, all I think is volleyball, volleyball, volleyball. I don't talk to people...I just play When I'm on the court, I'm nowhere else. Just there, and I'm in the ZONE. I know, cliche, but it's so true.

I know for a fact I'm not one of the best players there. There are about 60-75 girls who show up every day. Out of those girls, about 20 of them play Club Volleyball and have played for more than a year. My first time playing, was the first day of camp... I have a huge disadvantage. Experience is everything, and I dont have that. But, I'm trying to block the Club girls out and befriend them and not let their experience faze me. The coaches are still deciding whether they're going to have a FroshSoph team AND a Freshmen team, or just one team. I really hope they have two teams so that I have a greater chance of making it. If they don't have two teams, that means they're only taking 11-13 girls. That leaves basically no chance for non-Club players and some Club girls wouldn't even make it. If there were two teams, they'd take about 22-24 girls. That still leaves like 4 non-Club girls a spot. That's not a lot. At all. I want this SO bad. I've never wanted anything more in my life.

Now there's 6 more days of practice, meaning only 6 more days to prove I'm good enough. There's even a practice from 7-9 in the morning...Those of you who KNOW me know I wouldn't usually go to that, I'd just skip. But, this is VOLLEYBALL. I'm not going to skip, and I dont want to. I want to make this team, and I'm going to do whatever it takes. I'm going to go every single day, stay late to help clean up, whatever is going to get me on this team.

Whoever reads this, please pray for me. Pray I get better and better every day and that God gives me the perserverance (?) to keep going for what I want. And of course that I make the team. (: If I make this team, I'll get back on the right track. Lately, I've been flaking on everything. Friends, family, myself, and God. I think volleyball is making me focus and realize a lot. It gives me something to go for. I never have goals, but this is a HUGE one. If I make this team, it's going to do so much good in my life, I can tell... I need this.